I love to work. I strive on stress and powerplays. Is that weird? Although... I did have an emotional breakdown yesterday due to work. I've just felt so stressed out on getting things done and managing things effectively because I hate it when I'm not able to show what I am capable of. On top of that, I just had a bad day and a bad customer. I can usually take rude customers pretty well because usually they are just complaining about things I can't control and I just let them talk until they're done. But when somebody specifically criticizes me, it's no longer a customer-sales person relationship, it becomes more personal than that. And I will never take shit like that, ever. So we got into a heated argument and it got just a tad messy. If you're not going to stick up for yourself, no one else will.
But anyway, my state manager came in today to help me with the store and I really appreciated it. It's weird because I'm usually quite intimidated by managers, but one thing I've learned in the time working here; is that you always have to voice up if there's a problem. And you have to voice up if you don't know something.
Working full time really makes you appreciate your days off. It makes spending time with the people you love, just that much more worthwhile (L)
For once, I actually feel really excited about the future. I'm not worried about my career anymore because I know exactly what I want to do and how to achieve it. I don't think I've wasted any time, because in the end, everything seems to be falling into place. The past two years have been really tough, because I have always been a person with alot of ambition - but I had really lost it when Uni started. Never in my life had I felt so unmotivated and unhappy. I hated the fact that I wasn't an A grade student and I hated myself for letting so many outside issues affect me. I hated myself for letting my goals slip away in my own hands, and if I were to regret anything in my life - it would be just that. Even though I may like to party, look pretty and go out, education is like friends and family to me.
I think one of the most remorseful things in life is to not have anything to remind you of a significant era/event in your life. I'm glad I never acted foolishly in the moment and threw away everything. Because just the visual sense can bring back those moments that you may have forgotten. I don't live in the past; I just deeply appreciate and cherish the beauty of the past, because the past is what brings you into the present.
Zomgggggggggg. Christmas is in 2 days! New Years is next week. I can't believe it! It's really amazing how so much has changed, I remember last Xmas Kevin spent a whole week at my place to keep me company, and at new years we had a couples hotel thing. It's disheartening that we're the only couple who's left still together now. And this year, we're spending xmas with our families, and new years.... who knows. I wish we had something epic planned hahaha.
2009 has been one of those years where just so much has happened, but when it comes to the time to reflect, you just don't remember anything much. It is probably one of the years that I will forget, because along the way, I've been pushing things out of my mind. I no longer remember how I felt during the most striking moments of the year. I just know I was there, and that's all.
It's good to just relax today because I have been flat out. I've always had luck when landing on work so I take my job really seriously. The DJ's job I have now pays me casual rates with approx 35hrs a week with no xmas extended hrs midnight shifts. They also give me managerial power until I start uni again so it is really good. This week I'm working 40hrs and $$$ boxing day :)
Last week I finally got to spend proper time with Jinnie cos I've missed her so much. She even bought me this really cute gift (L) And we took so many capitols hahaha LOVE THEM! Lovers her :)
Wow I have not blogged in soooo long! I've been so, so busy... and I love it. So what has probably happened in the past month = exams and a new job. Results were out a few days ago and I did okay. I dunno, I don't ever mean to be pompous or anything but I'm always disappointed with my results. I don't think I will ever be satisfied unless I get 4 straight Distinctions. But really... I don't believe there's such thing as luck when it comes to Uni. It's hard work or nothing!
The new job is good. It's very relaxing compared to Esprit :) Since I'm all by myself in DJ's, I can do whatever I want most of the time. As long as I make budget, everything is cool! But I think I might have to get a new job (again) because rumor has it that we'll be getting an actual manager in soon which means my shifts will get cut. I'm thinking of applying for a 2IC role for Portmans or Country Road. I hope they accept me!
Holidays have been greaaat so far! :D I have all Fridays off and every second Saturday off so it gives me some flexibility to go out and stuff. Next week I also have one weekday off too which is good. Today is the first day in so long that I've actually stayed home and just chilled. I don't remember the last time I had one whole day off - just lounging at home. I've been out somewhere every single day for the past month which is pretty crazy! Yesterday I just spent the day with Kevin and we slept in till 1130 this morning hahaha (L) I'm very pleased with the what he bought.. who is a new addition to our family :) :) Welcome Miffy (L)
Tonight I was supposed to go out but I really cbf. I need this time to stay home and just chillax! Not to mention, I need to clean my room. I'll go do that now :)
