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2010-01-09T18:46:00.000+11:00

Happy 20th sweetie (L)

Workaholic

2010-01-05T20:28:00.002+11:00

I love to work. I strive on stress and powerplays. Is that weird? Although... I did have an emotional breakdown yesterday due to work. I've just felt so stressed out on getting things done and managing things effectively because I hate it when I'm not able to show what I am capable of. On top of that, I just had a bad day and a bad customer. I can usually take rude customers pretty well because usually they are just complaining about things I can't control and I just let them talk until they're done. But when somebody specifically criticizes me, it's no longer a customer-sales person relationship, it becomes more personal than that. And I will never take shit like that, ever. So we got into a heated argument and it got just a tad messy. If you're not going to stick up for yourself, no one else will.

But anyway, my state manager came in today to help me with the store and I really appreciated it. It's weird because I'm usually quite intimidated by managers, but one thing I've learned in the time working here; is that you always have to voice up if there's a problem. And you have to voice up if you don't know something.

Working full time really makes you appreciate your days off. It makes spending time with the people you love, just that much more worthwhile (L)

Ahead

2009-12-30T22:11:00.002+11:00

For once, I actually feel really excited about the future. I'm not worried about my career anymore because I know exactly what I want to do and how to achieve it. I don't think I've wasted any time, because in the end, everything seems to be falling into place. The past two years have been really tough, because I have always been a person with alot of ambition - but I had really lost it when Uni started. Never in my life had I felt so unmotivated and unhappy. I hated the fact that I wasn't an A grade student and I hated myself for letting so many outside issues affect me. I hated myself for letting my goals slip away in my own hands, and if I were to regret anything in my life - it would be just that. Even though I may like to party, look pretty and go out, education is like friends and family to me.

Let it go

2009-12-24T23:45:00.003+11:00

I think one of the most remorseful things in life is to not have anything to remind you of a significant era/event in your life. I'm glad I never acted foolishly in the moment and threw away everything. Because just the visual sense can bring back those moments that you may have forgotten. I don't live in the past; I just deeply appreciate and cherish the beauty of the past, because the past is what brings you into the present.

It's almost xmas . .

2009-12-23T11:10:00.003+11:00

Zomgggggggggg. Christmas is in 2 days! New Years is next week. I can't believe it! It's really amazing how so much has changed, I remember last Xmas Kevin spent a whole week at my place to keep me company, and at new years we had a couples hotel thing. It's disheartening that we're the only couple who's left still together now. And this year, we're spending xmas with our families, and new years.... who knows. I wish we had something epic planned hahaha.

2009 has been one of those years where just so much has happened, but when it comes to the time to reflect, you just don't remember anything much. It is probably one of the years that I will forget, because along the way, I've been pushing things out of my mind. I no longer remember how I felt during the most striking moments of the year. I just know I was there, and that's all.

It's good to just relax today because I have been flat out. I've always had luck when landing on work so I take my job really seriously. The DJ's job I have now pays me casual rates with approx 35hrs a week with no xmas extended hrs midnight shifts. They also give me managerial power until I start uni again so it is really good. This week I'm working 40hrs and $$$ boxing day :)

Last week I finally got to spend proper time with Jinnie cos I've missed her so much. She even bought me this really cute gift (L) And we took so many capitols hahaha LOVE THEM! Lovers her :)

xx

Di di di di di

2009-12-05T14:52:00.003+11:00

Wow I have not blogged in soooo long! I've been so, so busy... and I love it. So what has probably happened in the past month = exams and a new job. Results were out a few days ago and I did okay. I dunno, I don't ever mean to be pompous or anything but I'm always disappointed with my results. I don't think I will ever be satisfied unless I get 4 straight Distinctions. But really... I don't believe there's such thing as luck when it comes to Uni. It's hard work or nothing!

The new job is good. It's very relaxing compared to Esprit :) Since I'm all by myself in DJ's, I can do whatever I want most of the time. As long as I make budget, everything is cool! But I think I might have to get a new job (again) because rumor has it that we'll be getting an actual manager in soon which means my shifts will get cut. I'm thinking of applying for a 2IC role for Portmans or Country Road. I hope they accept me!

Holidays have been greaaat so far! :D I have all Fridays off and every second Saturday off so it gives me some flexibility to go out and stuff. Next week I also have one weekday off too which is good. Today is the first day in so long that I've actually stayed home and just chilled. I don't remember the last time I had one whole day off - just lounging at home. I've been out somewhere every single day for the past month which is pretty crazy! Yesterday I just spent the day with Kevin and we slept in till 1130 this morning hahaha (L) I'm very pleased with the what he bought.. who is a new addition to our family :) :) Welcome Miffy (L)

Tonight I was supposed to go out but I really cbf. I need this time to stay home and just chillax! Not to mention, I need to clean my room. I'll go do that now :)

xx

Don't let it kill you,

2009-10-31T16:43:00.003+11:00

Deep down you're just jealous of me. Because I already have everything that you want. I only need one boy, one true friend and one happy family.

La la la

2009-10-17T17:17:00.002+11:00

Oooft! Octoberfest was sooo shit for me :( I reckon if we didn't have to wait so long in the line, our moods would have been better. Extremely poor organising! Did anybody ever think of pre-selling tickets????? A few of our friends couldn't even get in after waiting in line for 2 hrs because apparently the tickets were sold out. How chat! At least notify them or something so they wouldn't have had to wait for nothing. Music was chat, it was also too crowded, no reception, drinks lines were too long etc. I swear the girls and I spent literally half our time there just waiting. Argh what a waste of time and money! WORST NIGHT EVER.

But, hotpot was good. Ron, Karen & I left really early to go eat cos were were famished. (well I was at least haha) I hope the rest of the night was better for those who stayed.

Yesterday Kevin and I went bowling :) He made up for the shit night I had at Octoberfest. He's so lucky he didn't end up going!! Then we had dinner at his place and I stayed the night. He's the sweetest thing (L)

P.S Tomorrow is my last day at Esprit. I quit.

:)

I love reality shows.

2009-10-08T22:01:00.002+11:00

Lol. I think I'm probably the only person out of my friends who likes watching reality shows. I love America's Next top Model and recently I've been watching the Bachelor and The Apprentice. I totally see through that reality shows are so unrealistic and so staged, but I can't help watching it! The Bachelor is probably the most stupid.. because I don't believe you can find your marriage match within 6 weeks. On top of that, 'dating' 12 women at a time. But I find it really interesting, and some things really make my heart melt even though I clearly know it's not real. I'm hooked on The Apprentice right now and I really like it. I have conflicting views on Donald Trump.. I don't know if I like him or not lol. But nonetheless, really interesting.

All clean!

2009-09-17T18:26:00.003+10:00

Zomg so I spent all day cleaning. Vacuumed, did a MASSIVE clearout of the closet and folded/hung ALL my clothes. Also got all my Uni papers sorted out.. cleaned out rubbish from my bin and bags, wiped the dust off my table/bed counter/decorations.. tidied my shoe rack, cleared out my stationary, tidied out my accessories and put all my bags in their respective dustbags. After 7 hrs, my room is now spotless :D Yayyy!!!

And now... I'm too lazy to study, Ahahaha great.

Nah I actually feel quite energised today cos I got alot of sleep! Promise I will study tonight :)

xx

Uni versity

2009-09-16T20:36:00.002+10:00

I have 3 MAJOR Assignments due in Week 10 which is approximately 11 days away! Zomg :( I'm really going to start tonight cos they are Legal assignments... and they're generally pretty hard. And I really do not want to pull all nighters for them again. But I think I should be okay cos I have some wonderful friends who help me hehehe. (L) Aiming for a HD again!!!!!

I think I've been 'busy' lately - I don't really know. I find that I actually try and make myself busy. I actually have abit of free time like when I surf facebook for hrs or something. I could probably use that time more constructively lol. But I'm so lazyyyyyy :( Today I only JUST made it on time this morning to hand in my Mgmt assignment. I regret not starting earlier because I probably would have done a tad better. My fault :( Hoping for a D please!!

I got an interview with Table Eight David Jones but I don't think I'm going to go lol. Second thoughts, even though I get discounts, their clothes are still expensive and.. not my style. I don't know where I want to work anymore. I actually don't want to work at all!! I want to rewind back to 2007-2008 and work with all my Witchery girls!!! Too bad they all had left before me :( I'm waiting for a position to come up again so I can re-apply. But the only available positions left are Witchery Pitt St and they're a bunch of bitches. (I don't know about now but they were the biggest bitches back when I was working) lol. And it's a tad far away for me. I don't want to be trekking out to the city early in the morning on the weekend. So picky huh haha.

*Sigh.

I went 'clubbing' last Sat @ Verandah. It was.. alright lol. I find that I get SO tired after a short time these days and the scene really doesn't appeal to me anymore. I think I've said this before but maybe I'm just getting old? It's just the same thing over and over again. And getting home just sucksssss. I don't think it's worth it. It's ok once in a while but I don't understand how people can club every week!! Amaaazinggggg!

And... my foot has gone soooo bad! I'm finally seeing a doctor on Friday lol.

2009-09-11T20:12:00.003+10:00

Sometimes you wonder how long people will stay. And what happens when they leave. How long do good things last? Because there's no such thing as forever.

Nobody like you,

2009-09-11T13:31:00.002+10:00

Happy one year baby!

Technically it's tomorrow but we decided to celebrate it a day earlier :)

Love you (L)

When you're gone

2009-09-08T15:27:00.002+10:00

I'm dying my hair back to black :) I'm soo sick of regrowths. I'm such a lazy person.. and hair is probably the last thing I look after.. surprisingly. So going back to black will make things easier. I'm gonna grow my hair really, really long and have my trademark hair back!!

I have sooo much stuff to do. Small things though, like going to the bank to change my pin because apparently Commonwealth thinks my details have been copied. And going to the docs tomorrow to get some more medicine. And... buying my hair dye tomorrow. And going to the post office to ship out some stuff from Ebay. And also, confirming plans for our 1 year ahh!! Time really does fly :)

Anyway, off to clean my room again!

Once upon a time I used to be best friends with this boy, like BFF. I used to blame everything on myself, until only now did I realise that there really was no right and wrong in that situation. I couldn't control who I fell for and in return, who I would hurt. Would we still have been friends anyway if I didn't jump into the relationship? If by any chance you're reading this, I hope you have a safe trip.. xx

Bi bi bop

2009-09-04T12:38:00.003+10:00

Mid sem break starts for me! But I'm working allllll weekend.. boo. And, I have SO much uni work to catch up on. Haha, fun times. I want to get a start on them because I really don't want to be chucking so many all nighters again the day before it's due. I don't think my body is that capable of doing that anymore. Not to mention, my skin. I didn't get much sleep on Wed cos I was studying for my mid sem and I broke out so much and felt so shit! It's weird because last year - all nighters were fine - I didn't have any major side effects or whatnot. Perhaps I really am getting old lol.

I did a glycolic acid peel last night and right now I'm peeling like CRAZY! I knew I would peel but I didn't think it would be this bad. I'm scabbing as well because I have so much dead skin on my face.. that's what happens when you don't treat your skin for ages.. haha it all accumulates. (for me anyway cos I have bad skin. I'm so jealous of you flawless skin people!) So right now my face has these blotchy things all over. I don't know if I can work tomorrow lol. I know some makeup will do the trick but I really don't want to aggravate my exposed skin right now. We'll see. I need $$$!

On the topic of skin.. I always blame bad skin on hereditary reasons. Haha but I know part of it is because of the shit I eat. Shame on me. I really need to start exercising huh?? And stop overdosing on fizzers, kfc, pods, grainwaves, chocolate... all of my favourite foods Mmm! I have basically no self control. And I drag my boyfriend down while I'm at it cos I never stop him from eating junk hahaha. We eat happily together (L)

Anyway, I'm gna plan my week now.. happy mid sem break :)

xx

I don't understand.

2009-08-31T22:10:00.003+10:00

It really infuriates me whenever there is news about girls getting raped and abducted. It makes me so angry that it happens SO often and nothing and no one can ever retribute the damage caused. I wanted to know more about the recent news on the 11 yr old held captive, and whether anybody was sentenced yet; so I searched on google for '11 year old rape' and so many different cases came up. So, so disgusting. It brings tears to my eyes that little children have to go through all this. I felt so angry and torn inside when I read that this 11 yr old girl had to undergo surgery because she was too badly hurt after the rape. Imagine that - just walking to school and then getting abducted. Her soul almost ends there. And then I came across a 11 yr old girl gang rape case.. honestly, wtf. I couldn't read anymore so I stopped there. I really don't understand how and why people can be so sickening. In that 1/2 hr or so, the little girls whole life has changed - it will remain as a part of her for the rest of her life. And nobody, should have that memory, no body. Which is why I get so mad when the law does not serve justice in this stance. In my opinion, all rapists should serve life sentence. I believe that they should pay their own life for taking away an innocent girls soul.

"While a murderer destroys the physical frame of the victim, a rapist degrades and defiles the soul of a helpless female. "

Fun times

2009-08-29T19:41:00.002+10:00

Yayyy just got home from work! I was asked to work tomorrow and I almost said yes because I'm low on $$$ but.. I remembered I had heaps of Uni stuff to do. And, my room is a mess and it needs massive cleaning :(

Last night was Ray and Gela's Birthday and it was a blast! Ahaha the girls and I were so tipsy during Karaoke and it just went offfffff. Fun times :D xxxxxxxxxx

And I find myself asking,

2009-08-27T13:36:00.002+10:00

I'm sooo lazy. I don't have Uni today so I'm just lounging around the house.. home alone :) I have so much work to catch up on though especially Legt! But I have work tonight so that's why I cbf doing anything right now. I want to do some shopping before I start haha. But I reaaaallyyy have to save - I've been spending heaps these days on food.. really not good. And I got owned bcos my credit card app. got rejected LOL =_=. I really wish I could drive, I regret not learning earlier. Because I would be able to travel to so many places to work rather than being stuck here at Esprit. I should stop complaining because all-in-all, it's my fault haha. I have done literally ZERO hours on my L's.

Things to do (excluding Uni):
1) Do hours on my L's so I can get my P's ASAP
2) SAVE $$$
3) GET A NEW JOB
4) Sell stuff on Ebay
5) Get my AMus for piano

Speaking of Amus... the other day I told Danny I know how to play fluent piano and he was SO shocked. Seriously, is it that hard to believe? Not many people know I know how to play piano because I don't talk about it, but it's not that shocking right. I'm pretty rusty though - I did 8th grade in yr 9 so that's pretty wayyyyy back. I used to have a love/hate relationship and hate my parents for forcing me to learn it but now I really, really appreciate it :) But Amus is pretty hard. I need a lot of piano lessons for it but teachers these days charge about $70 an hour. HECTIC right =_=. I don't know if we can afford it anymore. And... I'm a Commerce student not a Music student lol

Anyway! Idk if any of you have realised.. but I actually have a swollen foot. But now it's FINALLY getting better!!! Ahaha I'm so silly for not treating it earlier. And even more silly for clubbing in heels when my foot was at its worst. That's Chrissy for you!

I fell in love with Dior lately so I did a "little" splurge the other day... hmm. That's all :D

x x

2009-08-08T16:20:00.002+10:00

I need a new job! (Again) Lol this may sound so stupid but I'm really considering going back to Witchery if they decide to take me. Obviously not the same store again though. I miss it heaps - working there was such a breeze compared to Esprit but that was only cos I was working with really lovely people.. until they all found full-time jobs. And I was the only one left to deal with the new manager. Fingers crossed an opportunity will come up soon!

Yesterday Kevin and I headed out to the zoo bright and early :). Honestly, I had a WONDERFUL time - the zoo is definitely recommended for couples. It was definitely better than expected and there were heaps of things to do/see! But I was sooo tired at the end of the day and also SO hungry. We ate at Cya and I ordered something completely new.. but it turned out to be really bad :( So I had to take that away and order something else. Ahaha it's the first time I've had to do that.

Last week I did something pretty crazy. Haha our new motto was 'live in the moment.' But living in the moment is probably not something I would usually do. Because I like to plan and have at least an idea of what the future holds. But living in the moment once in a while is fun :) I do like adventure haha.

Lately I've been pretty deep in thought about a lot of issues. It's so exhausting but I'm glad I have somebody to share it with. To Jinnie, thank you (L)

When you become afraid.

2009-08-06T14:55:00.001+10:00

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.

What a small world.

2009-07-28T21:20:00.004+10:00

Sydney is such a small place. Well - even in the literal sense, it is only a tiny tiny part of the world. What are the chances of bumping into people at the exact time/exact place and also being in the same tutorials and being chosen in the same group lol. I know Uni is small... but really, what are the chances?!?! I find it amazing how coincidence works.

Last Friday, the weather was wonderful in the afternoon so Kevin and I decided to go through Darling Harbour. Initially we were going to go bowling but it was all booked out zomg!! :( So instead we went to dvd and watched this wrestling movie.. which suprisingly wasn't too bad at all. I remember Jin telling me about the markets on Friday night so we decided to go have a look and they have soo much nice stuff there! I love looking at everything.. even though I didn't buy much at all. But we bought these:

Kevin's bun and my toast. Don't you just want to eat it??
It's too fragile to hang on my phone.. so delicate!

Saturday night I had a lovely night with the girls :) We couldn't find any seats at any nice Jap restaurants so we settled down for some Italian place which was quite nice. Then we just went Norita and played 'Clue' which is the most random game hahaha.. but Karen loves it apparently. She also loves Hannah Montana.. omg lol. I had to go home early - shame :( Would have loved to stay for Passion Flower... mmmmm.

My favourite! Hahahaha love you girls!

2nd week of Uni is going okay so far. I really want my HD's this sem!

x x

Rant

2009-07-22T21:54:00.004+10:00

Uni has started!! The girls and I have set out our goals of achieving HD's this sem :) I'm proud of us because we all did relatively well last sem. However my first week wasn't that great. Because 1) one of my lecturers didn't turn up and 2) Legt 2731 was a disaster. I've never had to swear in a seminar before but this one was just so pathetic. Mr Zumbo the dumbo is a freaking idiot. He is so racist and prides European/Americans so much that he totally ignores the Asians. His course does not require/offer any textbooks or lecture slides and he does not use WebCt at all. Call me traditional or whatever, but I NEED a textbook to study and do well. I can't just rely on 'class discussion' and listen to his lame jokes. So... I dropped the course immediately.

Moving on.. I read something really interesting this week. I've never really had problems with other girls because we get along well most of the time, but not this one. She obviously had a problem with me and wrote about an incident she knew barely anything about. Why she did that, I do not know. And if anybody openly expresses their discontent about me on the internet, with the mindset that I'd never see - I can be very nasty. But whatever - I'm over it now lol. Thanks for the apology.

Gosh this entry is just a rant haha.

HP was a let down, but how good was soft shell crab?

2009-07-16T22:59:00.004+10:00

Omg. Harry Potter was so jam packed and noisy and ontop of that, the movie itself was SO SHIT. (I haven't read the book so maybe that's why I didn't know exactly what was going on). But still. I've seen all the other HP movies and they're pretty good/ok but this half-blooded prince one was just plain chat! No climax whatsover and the ending was stupid lol. That's what I think anyway. Sorry HP fans :(

But on a positive note... Wagaya has really yummy food. I love it there!! After dinner, K and I headed off to DVD. Zomg, we haven't been there in SO long. And guess what, as we were about to leave, we bumped into my gorgeous Jin and Alan who were just going in hahaha. Coincidence much!

x x

Up, up, up.

2009-07-14T13:27:00.005+10:00

So I said I wasn't going to head out on Saturday night.. but I did haha. I craved Jap food so I met up with Karen and we ate @ Fujiya then had passionflower icecream afterwards :) Then met up with Bec and the boys at Martin Place for drinks but I didn't stay for long cos I was scared I'd change my mind and make an irrational decision and go Bamboo! Looks like everyone had a blast though.

Kevin downloaded UP for me and I love it zomg. I love Disney so much. I love chubby kids. I love re-enacting the scenes until it annoys Kevin so much he wants me to stop lol. But seriously, Up is a really good movie. It was so cute and funny and there were a lot of scenes that really touched me and made me cry. I love how cartoons can bring out emotions in such a simple way.

SO CUTE (L)

Sick,

2009-07-11T14:32:00.002+10:00

So I've been sick and it obviously sucks. I've stayed at home for 3 days now - let me out!! But I don't really have the physicality to go clubbing tonight although all my gf's are going.. including Miss Ron whom I didn't see at PJ. Boooooo :( Holidays are slowly withering away lol.

I actually don't mind Uni too much anymore except when assessments pile up. Other than that - Uni is quite pleasant. I'm excited because Accounting has disappeared from my life forever. I'm actually disappointed with Uni results although I got: 2 DN, 1 CR and 1 PS. Disappointed I missed out on HD for Legal and disappointed I only got CR for Int.B cos I tried so hard in this!! Also disappointed with the PS in Accounting, but oh well - what do I expect right? Maths is not the forte. There's a reason why I dropped from 3U to General Maths in Highschool hahaha - good times. So since Acct is gone, I have to get at least 1-2 HD's or 3 DN's next semester or I'll cut my hair into a bowl cut. You have my word. (hehehe I hope no body remembers this) Though all-in-all, on a serious note, I do feel pretty sad. I do have high expectations all the time and a lot of times I feel so, so inadequate. Okay enough self-pitying on the www.

Le boyfriend did a lot better than me.. so I'm v. proud of him although I do feel slightly embarrassed when I compare my results to him. I don't want to fall behind... so I'm going to use him as competition even though we do different subjects :) SIGH.

Anyway, what should I do tonight??? For health reasons, I think I'm going to stay at home. But this is so not me. I never used to stay at home and miss out on any outing just because I'm sick.... perhaps I'm getting old hehe.

(L)

We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give.

2009-07-07T13:41:00.003+10:00

I love life. Maybe because I have a very good one and I'm forever grateful for everything I have. Life is beautiful :) We always have to remember that even in the lowest point of our lives, there is always a bright field on the other side. Breaking up with the boyfriend can be devastating but we gotta learn to love ourselves and never forget how much more to life there is. But it really scares me how we never know what's going to happen in the future. You can be the top of the world at one minute and rock bottom at another. I've only been with Kevin for 10 months and letting go is just so hard already. I can't even imagine what it's like for married couples to break up, after everything they've been through. But I guess at that age, the benefit of maturity kicks in and we learn to deal with it with a rational mind and heart.

Uni results come out this Friday =S I don't really know how well/bad I did! We can always try harder though... HD average next Sem hahahaha. Bleh I won't worry about that until Friday - gotta enjoy holidays now to its' maximum. I'm sooo glad I finished another weekend of work; die die die work.

Friday - I watched Ice Age 3D with Kevin - loves it! I love those cute little animals, especially that scene where the baby dinosaur uses one of the animals as a squeeky toy in the playground! And that scene where that fat animal runs across the screen when everyone else is still and quiet hahahaha. :) :) :)

Saturday - had work then had dinner with Bec and the boys. I was a good girl and went home while they all went Verandah. Surprisingly I was still rational even though I had a bit to drink!

Yesterday I went over to Kevins and just had a relaxing day. Didn't particularly want to head out cos it was so cold.. so instead we had dinner in and he made me something :) :) MASTER CHEF KEVIN! (L)

And now... I'm sick with a fever. Going to stay home for the next few days :( This sucks. Hopefully I get better by Fri/Sat so I can head out cos I hate staying at home.

Also... in love with Neyo - Mad.
Neyo > Chris Brown x 1000000000000.

xx

"The most beautiful discovery that true friends can make is that they can grow separately without growing apart."

2009-07-02T22:36:00.004+10:00

I don't exactly remember when my last 1 on 1 with Jin was. We've been SO boggled with Uni/work etc and since we go to different uni's and live on total opposite lines, it doesn't make things any better :( But we finally caught up today which was very long overdue! However, I will be seeing her more than twice a week starting from the 20th this month because... (it's a secret) hehe. I AM SO EXCITED - BEYOND WORDS.

She'll always be my bestest girlfriend. Love you beautiful! xx

Don't these look yummy? Cos they are!!

I LOVE HOLIDAYS.

2009-06-29T21:57:00.002+10:00

I've been pretty happy lately :) It's probably the first time in a long time that I've been just so content. No worries at all - except the fact that somebody has bought a jacket from me on Ebay and I still have not shipped it. Shame on me! I'll make sure I do it tomorrow..

So Docks on Friday night with the girls was lovely :) I haven't been in the clubbing scene for SO long now that I almost forgot what it was like to dance the night away and come home at 3-4am. My alcohol tolerance went down to a ultimate low.. thanks Bec & Karen for looking after me for the first half! I bumped into so many people again which was really, really good. I actually spent more time catching up with people this time instead of being on the dance floor. Honestly, I'm quite sick of the clubbing scene.. it's just so repetitive, I guess I'm slowly growing out of it haha. Then I had work the next morning and I was feeling alright. On the topic of work - I really DON'T LIKE Esprit. I hate the clothes, I don't particularly like the people... and I just simply don't like my job. I've been in retail for 3 years and I'm getting sooo sick of it now. I'm looking for new jobs online... wish me luck!

Today I went over to Kevin's and we had a very relaxing time together :) Had Macca's breakfast which I have not had in a very, very long time! We went through his childhood photos and he's been to sooo many places! But he was the chubbiest kid.. chubbiest kindergarten kid ever hahaha. Love it :D Then we headed out and watched 'Hangover' which was okaaay? The only reason we decided to watch it was because we heard it was really funny and good but eh, not my kind of humour.

I'm getting pretty sleepy now.. I've been out for almost 14 hrs! Going to shower and might msn/phone for a bit. But I'm getting sort of hungry so I might get a bite first - good night :)

Hi holidays!

2009-06-25T15:14:00.006+10:00

"Never judge a book by its cover."

It's just so easy to fall into that trap. I do it so often - sometimes I don't even realize or I'm not even aware of how terrible it can be. But when it happens to me, I guess it hits me. I admit I've judged a few of my current friends - and look, a few of them have become my closest friends and are some of the most beautiful people. Of course there are exceptions haha. I guess when you get a really terrible horrible first impression, then that will always stay. And there are some people you can just tell from a really strong feeling, that you will not get along with them.

On this topic of judging, it never really used to bother me until now; - this stereotype that 'good-looking' people are dumb. Good-looking can mean different things to people, but perhaps I'll break it down specifically to people who portray themselves nicely and look good most of the time. I admit I am a dressing up kind of girl and so are most of my closest friends. Makeup, nice clothes, nice hair etc - all those things you'll find in Mean Girls lol. Just because we make the effort to look 'good,' it doesn't mean we don't value intelligence. I know that's how the media portrays it but I'm quite sick of the portions of the general public who think this way too. Intelligent people also value looks, because face it, we all know how far looks can get you nowadays. Of course I'm not saying looks can get you everything, but I believe beauty and intelligence definitely goes hand in hand. So next time you see us at a club, don't automatically assume we go to TAFE okay. One of us will probably be either your future doctor, lawyer, engineer or accountant.

While I'm on this topic, there has been one time that I've been subtly criticized of 'choosing' my friends - that I only go out with smart people and only want 'smart' friends. And apparently I don't have a right to choose because I went to a non-selective school? Pffft. Even though I didn't go to a selective school, I'm extremely proud of my 95 UAI and so are my parents. Yeh so what if all my ex's went to Sydney Boys and my current boyfriend studies law? Yeh you're right - all my girlfriends are intelligent and yes I chose to pursue a closer relationship with them. Why? Because I find intelligence very attractive. (Miss Ron would know :) ) And we all get along extremely well and I'm very grateful. However, this doesn't mean I snob off 'unintelligent' people, ever. I agree that intelligence does not mean you have to be academically smart, but since I've been moulded by my parents that intelligence = education, that's just the way I am.

So yeh, those are a few things I've wanted to get off my chest :)

And... I'm officially on holidays!! I had my last exam yesterday - IB which was okay. Nothing great, nothing too bad either. I know I did much better this semester than last, so I'm going to make sure this continues into next Sem as well. After my exam, Kevin came to Central and then we went back to Chatswood to have Sushi train and watched Transformers. I fell inloveee with Sushi train, ever since that time I had it with Bec hahaha (The market city place is still my favourite though!) Transformers was good but overrated. That's all I'm going to say :) After that, I just went back to Kevin's place to lie down for a while cos I was pretty tired, then headed back home late and had a very, very good sleep!

I'm going to stay home tonight.. catch up on dramas, rest up a bit because I'm partying hard with the girls tomorrow @ Docks. See you all there!! xx

Hey guys, I got a haircut.

2009-06-19T21:51:00.008+10:00

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HAHAHA. It looks real huh?
I would never get this cut, even though it's 'cute.'
http://www.instyle.com/instyle/makeover/

Rain, rain go away!

2009-06-18T21:31:00.003+10:00

Seriously, today was the worst weather for an exam. I got soaked because my umbrella had a hole and it was POURING. I was wearing flats & jeans and they both got soaked. And because my shoes are suede, the excessive water made them lose colour and now my feet are all black and blotchy!! #$%#^#$@&# Not to mention, my jeans and shoes never ended up drying which led to my feet being literally frozen until I got home :( Hate you weather.

Anyway, did my Legt exam today and I guess it wasn't too bad. In fact, I thought it was relatively ok :) But I'm not going to jinx myself because I'm really aiming/hoping for a HD!! I've sort of lost motivation to study now.. haha which is really bad. I still have Mgmt and Int. B next week which I have not touched yet. I will start getting into it tomorrow, *sigh.

Restaurant City is getting sooo boring now. Boo :(

Only time will tell.

2009-06-17T19:05:00.003+10:00

Got this from Arumi's fb:

"Whatever you do during this first day, don't ever forget that things will get better. It's unrealistic to put a timescale on things, but soon you'll start to feel normal, and after a while you'll start to have fun, and then a few months later you'll wake up one morning smiling, yet waiting for the kick in the guts to hit you, and it won't come. You'll stop thinking of him as an actual person. He'll be less of a human being, more of an era, like the Renaissance or the Industrial Revolution. One day soon, if you see him in person, it will be more like looking at a photograph of yourself as a child in the seventies - you'll know you were there, you'll think it looked like it was okay, but you won't really be able to remember it or believe that it actually happened to you... Because you're happy again."

Relief

2009-06-15T19:47:00.008+10:00

Had my Acct exam today.. and it wasn't too bad I guess. However, MC always, always, ALWAYS baffles me :( I always end up losing the most marks in MC. Anyway, I'm relieved that the worst is now over! Had sushi train with Bec afterwards and it was SO yum. We were both starving and just pigged out... but still didn't beat the couple next to us who just kept stacking on the dishes :9 :9 We had this strange Japanese pudding thing which tasted like alcohol (which was the only reason why Bec ate it hahaha) (L)

Now I can finally get rid of all this accounting stuff once and for all!
Goodbye Accounting, hello Legt :) :)

This made my day:

Dad: "Let's go Square City for Yumcha."
Me: "Square City?!?! Where's that?"
Dad: "Near townhall. You know that place..."
Me: "Umm no... wait, do you mean World Square?!"

LOLOLOLOLOL

Dad: "That fire bitch is in the way"
Me: "What fire bitch? What's that?..."
Dad: "Fire bitch is blocking the traffic, LOOK"
Me: (still confused): "Eh... You mean the fire BRIGADE?"

HAHAHAHA *sigh.

It's the finale.

2009-06-14T19:40:00.003+10:00

Zomg, exams start tomorrow for me.. and it's really kicking in now :( I can't believe I went to work today though lol. Heh, I'll survive :) I drank a bottle of V but I stocked up on more:

If I was with the girls, Bec would be the one drinking the bottle cos she claims that the bottle is better than the can =_=, and Karen & I would be drinking the cans. But we would all be equally as high hahaha (L)

Speaking of which.. last night I received an sms from Karen: "if I break my leg, does that mean I can not do the exam? ..." Random much? LOL she scared me for a little bit though - I thought she had really broken her leg. Tssk, Miss Law would rather break her leg than do her exams :P

Anyways, gotta go now! Love you Kevin! xx

2009-06-12T22:45:00.002+10:00

Update:

That's the jacket I bought the other day.
You probably can't really see it that well, but I lovers it!!

Recollection.

2009-06-12T21:58:00.004+10:00

I woke up bright and early today and headed off to Uni to study with Kevin. Got through some past papers but I still have sooo much more to do! I'm so lazy when I get home :( However, despite both of us being really tired.. I had a very nice day. It's just days times these where exams are pushed out of the mind for once and we just enjoy the present to its fullest. Had dinner at Cya and then I made him try pistachios icecream from Gelatissimo - hahaha and he said that it was the worst icecream he's EVER tasted. Really? :( :( :(

Despite everything, I will never forget the hundreds of times that he's made me feel like the happiest girl on earth.

Suave.

2009-06-11T20:45:00.003+10:00

Yesterday I finally went to my own Uni to study hahaha. I hadn't been up at main library in ages but omg has it changed SO much. I love it! Although I reckon they should have substituted the orange theme with red. But as Danny says - it's very suave indeed :)

Accounting is really giving me the shits though. Today I studied at Macq Uni, had 2 cans of V so I was pretty energised. But I still didn't do all that much, I think. Maybe cos I suck at acct and it takes me twice as long as an average person to absorb and understand the information :( :( So I moved on to Legt instead and I was a happier person lol. Tomorrow I gotta go to my own Uni again and go to Accounting consultation cos I have absolutely no idea about this one specific chapter!! S.O.S

I want to get a new haircut soon. I also want hair extensions (I know you're gonna say 'as if your hair isn't long enough') but I seriously want it longer lol. So that's going to be one of the first things on my 'to-do' list once holidays start! $$$

Note to self: STOP EATING JUNK.

2009-06-09T18:36:00.004+10:00

@ 6.37 pm

Weary yet dynamic.

Just got back from Macq Uni. It is SO packed there, I literally took about 15-20 minutes walking around finding a desk! I guess tomorrow I have to get there earlier :( Another downfall is that the Epping to Chatswood free rail ticket expired today and I had to pay $3.20 student from Epping to Macquarie. Like, wtf right! JIPPED. It only costs $1.90 student from Strathfield to Epping. I guess I'll buy a weekly travelpass since I have exams next week and I can use it on the Epping/Chatswood line as well.

I would go to my own library but UNSW is such a bitch to get to, so nope :( Speaking of which, goodluck to my lovely macq & uts people who have their exams this week!!

And to those who thought they saw me today.. YES IT WAS ME. I'm sorry if I didn't say hi, I didn't have my contacts on! This is my exam studying uniform; I've been wearing it every time I go to the library. It's like 3 sizes too big but it's just so warm and comfortable. So if you don't really recognise me, it's ok! I don't really want you to notice me anyway hahahaha.

I'll probably wear this to my exams too haha. Maybe.

Mmm grainwaves :9

Anyway, back to study again!
Seriously can not wait till holidays... zomg. :) :)

Composed.

2009-06-08T21:01:00.004+10:00

A few people may have read my deleted post and probably found it a little entertaining. But no, it's not exactly what you think. I guess I was just being a bitch hahahah. Anyway, things have been pretty rocky lately - and exams don't make it any better. But it's gradually getting better. Today I went to Yum-cha with the family; it's been a while since we've had a family day cos dad is always working. So it was really nice :). Yum-cha is always a rip off though! I always feel like I didn't eat much but the bill is always pricey. After that, I just went to Macq Uni to study for Accounting.. and it was okay.

I went over to Kevin's afterwards and we just talked. I guess a lot of our mutual friends have question marks over their heads as to what's going on because it has been so complicated lately over the past 2 months. But yes - we're still together now (L) Only time will tell.

I need to remind myself to stop eating so much junk!! Even Danny said to me: "Christina, every time I see you, you're eating junk!" I'm sooo bad. I'm addicted to Pods, Popcorn chicken snack-boxes and now.. Sweet Chilli Grain Waves. Haha :( My friends would know I'm really not a healthy person at all, even though I may look it (A)

Anyway, back to study soon. HD baby!

xx

P.S I heart Miss Ron my most rational gf! Haha :)

Unfetterred.

2009-06-04T14:57:00.004+10:00

Oh dear, I can't seem to keep my old blogs for long. I always want to privatise my past and start anew. Nothing lasts. Whenever you feel that you've finally found what you've wanted - there's always, always a twist. But... such is life :) Lately I've been letting go of things that should have been gone a while ago and I guess since then, I've been happier. I hope it's the same for most people too. This month and last month was heartbreak season. I don't know what initiated it all in everybody, stress maybe? Or perhaps people finally realised what they wanted in life and what's worth keeping. I love my girlfriends. I hope one day soon, we'll all wake up with a mellow heart (L)

I've officially finished Semester 1 of Uni! I finish exams on the 24th - I think everybody else finishes about then too :D Uni has been not-so-bad this year.. surprisingly. Maybe cos there's no more freaking QMA & QMB or any other counterpart lol. The other day, I got my first HD in Commerce; for the Legt assignment! Studying is definitely the first priority right now. But I've got to get ready for work soon... argh. Luckily I took off work next week so I have more time to study. So tiring :(

That's all for now, xo

P.S I want to get another employee on Restaurant City. It's soooo slow!